The "write stuff"... and other errata

Yes, throw stones at me, if you will. I know that this was a terrible pun. I just couldn't help myself. :-)

OK. I am "knee deep" in writing the letter... which is what made the pun so much fun! I think this letter is a doozy!

I can't wait to see how the story ends. LOL

Seriously, though, this is proving to be quite the letter. It's turning out to be very long. It may end up being a bit of a short story by the time I am done. So far, it's over 2000 words and I'm not even close to being done! Jeepers. I was a afraid of this. Still, the important part is getting said what needs to get said.

I am writing this the way that I write everything else -- I do a little outlining and then just fill in the gaps. I am going to great lengths to avoid using lots of flowery language or trying to write too much. Quite the opposite, in fact. I'm editing as I go and trying to condense things where I can. Brevity is not my strong suit, it seems.

In other news (the so called errata portion of this post), I continue to see little remarks from Sally here and there (via social media) where I can tell that something is on her mind, but she's not coming out and saying something directly. They have a certain feel/theme to them that is unmistakable. Sometimes, I don't think that she even realizes that she's doing it. It's kind of like putting your internal monologue on external speaker (if that makes any sense to you).

I started noticing this yesterday, because of some comments from last night where she got into a bit of tiff with Ranger Rick. She said that "it's no big deal", but I have gotten good at reading between the lines. If it wasn't an issue, it would have just passed.

There were also a few items she put out there today that were of the "something is going on" variety. I did talk to her on the phone today and she downplayed it all... still, my "spider sense" tells me that there is more to this than she is letting on. Exactly what, I cannot be sure. In any case, I am confident that (at least in this case) "where there is smoke, there is fire".

As a result, it leaves me a bit off balance. I never quite know what I am going to see next or walk into. Part of it is probably some historical conditioning (i.e. waiting for the [proverbial] "other shoe to drop"). There's an aspect of underlying fear and uncertainty with her. She could tell me anything tomorrow. So, in the face of that kind of uncertainty, I just keep asking questions, making requests and not assuming things.

Our day together this week is Thursday. All of my attention is on that for the moment. We'll see what happens then. If nothing else, it should be interesting. I am not planning on introducing the letter into the conversation at that point, but we'll see. I don't know how, when or if I'll introduce it. It may just be an intellectual exercise... but, somehow I doubt it.

On the "Plan B" front, most of my conversations with the other "candidates" are going along well, but it's all a bit tentative. In other words, there are no clear leaders or next steps with anyone. It's probably just as well. I'm fine with things taking whatever time is needed to mature. Frankly, I don't have the time to pursue multiple relationships at this point.

In addition, if something did start to heat up on this front, I'd have to confront Sally and deal with that. Not a conversation I'd relish, but one I know would be needed. To say that it would change the game with us would be the understatement of the year. It would be a cold, hard dose of reality for her. One that I don't want to serve up like that... yet, I may not have a choice about it.

There are times when I wish that it was all easy and would go back to normal. Unfortunately, that's not the way that it works. At least, not for me.