No, I just can't fucking believe it!!!
I thought that this space was all behind me.
I thought I'd worked all the issues out.
It's been over four years since my last post.
Shit, not that you'd know.
Only by the date on the posts really.
But, boy, I'm telling you -- I need this blog right now.
I've got so much shit swimming in my head and I need to get it out.
I don't know that I can finish this all right now, but I know that I need to be using this as an outlet for me, at least, a partial one.
There have been so many changes in my life and my relationship with Sally -- and they're driving me fucking insane!!!
So:
- I got a new job that is the equivalent of 2.5 full-time jobs
- I am now the primary breadwinner for our "family" and am barely making ends meet with our level of expense
- We moved out of state
- We got married
- We opened up our marriage as a polyamorous couple
- She's slutting around with multiple men and women
- I'm barely getting any sex
AND I'M ABOUT TO FUCKING EXPLODE!!!
Worst part of it all?This is my fucking refuge.
The only place I can go to work things out.
I could just about fall into a crying fit on a moments notice.
Seriously.
This is not an exaggeration.
Something needs to break and it cannot be me!!!
Strangely, this narrative sounds very familiar...
