Let The Chips Fall...

I've been thinking a lot and it hit me last night:

If she goes, she goes.
Fuck it!!

As I was thinking back on my last posting, I felt a great wave of relief come over me when I had this thought.

It's not that I won't miss her or that I don't love her, because I do.
But she's not responsible for my happiness -- I am.
I can't afford to let her shape how I live my life.
That's too much power to place in her hands.

If leaving is what she wants, more power to her.
I know that I am someone that the right woman will want to be with.
If it's not her, then that's her loss -- not mine!

Let the chips fall where they may...

Other Shoes Keep Falling!

Fucking shoes anyway! :-/

The alternate title to this blog post could be:

And that's the Nth time that she's left me!

I shit you not!

I've been crafting some posts to catch things up, but now find myself perpetually (tragically?) behind the goings on in my world.

So this past Saturday...

The Three 'R's

From a friend at his website:

On Kate...

The alternate title to this post is:

"About regrets"

Yeah, you heard that right. The Big "R" -- Regret.

I never thought I'd be saying this, given my relationship with Sally, but I am.

Why? Well, let's have a look, shall we?!

On Resilience

I've been distracted a lot lately.
Not because I want or need to be distracted, because that's the way things have been with Sally.
It's not been an easy year and a half...
In fact, I find it (almost) hard to believe that this much time has already passed.

I'd hoped to be well past where I am now.
So much for my hopes and dreams!

Why, you ask? Well...

I'm back!

Believe it or not, I am back.

Why?!

Because I fucking need it.

I gotta get these thoughts out of my head... AGAIN!

Right now, I'm full of nonsense and it's not serving me well.

In fact, this is how I feel right now: