It's Done

Well, it's now a done deal.

Yesterday, we took our paperwork to the Family Law division of Superior Court and filed for the divorce. Just two hours after that, Sandy drove off in her packed car to start her new life.

I spent the majority of the day cleaning and making it into my house. At least as much as one can without much effort.

I felt out of sorts all day. I couldn't do anything. Trying to shake the disoriented feeling. A lot of disruption to how I've known my life in a very short time.

A few things are up to talk about. Will  post in a day or so.

Two Days And A Wake Up...

As I sit in my "room" here on Christmas morning, it seems that the best gift that I am going to get (and likely give) this year is that of a future for Sandy and I that isn't an extension of our past. In a very short time, that gift will arrive and it's all up for grabs then. Neither of us knows where it's going to go, but we do know that we're going.

I am going to remember this Christmas for the rest of my life.

The End Is Near

Since our first round of conversations on Saturday, things have been a bit "dicey" with Sandy. Yeah, there's a discernible tension in the air between us. Even when we're around others, it's completely noticeable. There's no longer any appearance of being a couple. It's clear that we are parting. It makes it hard for people around us sometimes, as it's likely more difficult for them than us.

Today Was Hard

I spent the day today working with Sandy on our separation agreement. It was actually one of my hardest days thus far. So many things about it were uncomfortable. I can almost not even just choose one that stands out more than another.

Some days I hate my life and this was one of them.

Holiday Cheer and Latest Updates

I've been slacking on my blogging, but it's not because nothing has been going on. Not even close. In fact, there's quite a bit happening on several fronts. If I had to choose a word to summarize it, that word would be "WOW!". Yeah, it's been like that.

Let's take them one at a time, shall we?

The Vortex

I don't know if there's any other way to describe it, when things go South with Sally and I, they don't just go South -- they go off the rails. As you might imagine, that's never a good thing. This time had a few twists to it that were interesting.

Meeting with Sally...

Sally called and asked me to meet her to talk. Headed there now. It'll either be great or terrible -- nothing in between. It's a very unusual move for her. I'm actually scared.

The Unwinding

So much has been happening in my life, I can barely keep up with it. Often I feel like I am on the ragged edge of sanity -- potentially "losing it" if it just gets "a little bit worse". Yeah, it's like that.

Surprise Works Both Ways

Heh. Just when I thought I was being all slick, all of a sudden Sally changes the game on me.