When it comes to Sally, I don't think I will really ever have a "last word". There will always be something to think about or something to consider. Some element that is worthy of examining for a lesson learned.
Well, I think I may have hit the unique set of circumstances that closes the door completely with her.
Why? Let me explain.
Today, we were exchanging some e-mail and text messages. She's still pretty funked up. I don't think that will change any time soon.
Tonight she and I exchanged both IM, text and e-mail. She sent me an e-mail and text message to let me know that she did. I told her that I would look at it.
If we cannot talk (as in actually talking on the phone and/or in person), I'll take whatever opening has been provided to me. So, I elected to compose a response to her. I got one back not long after I had sent it. The response mail was very terse. She made it clear that she didn't know what to say and it was harder to talk to me with each passing day.
At this point, I'm quite clear that I don't have a darn clue about how this woman's mind works. And that's OK. Given everything that has happened, maybe I was just not intended to understand or be related longer to her during this lifetime. If that's the case, I'm now fine with that.
I think that we've both said the last things that really need to be said to each other. If we don't talk beyond this, it'll be OK. Of course, there's no end until there is an end, right? Yeah, exactly. I'm waiting to get that e-mail or text message eventually. At this point, I think it's only a matter of time.
There's only so much I can do and influence. Beyond that, it's not my job.
I'm going to let her be. She wants to talk to me, she knows where to find me. She doesn't want to talk, I'm not going to press the issue.
It's just not worth it.
You are right!!
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