Catching Up

Yeah, there are some shockers and revelations in the "catch up."
Are you ready? Well, then let's go!

Here is the "Cliff Notes" version of what has happened.

Divorce with Sandy is final

• Things aren't perfect, but we are on speaking terms
• She was incredibly upset with me for quite a while this year, but she really didn't have any basis for it
• Financially, due to the divorce
• I no longer have any savings, save the cash in my pocket
• My retirement accounts are basically gone
• The stress that this represented in my life led to addressing my feelings (once again) with food

My overall health has declined

• My eating has been off -- lots of bad foods and no portion management
• A good deal of the weight that I'd lost I "found" again
• I stopped my exercise program and have had a horrible time trying to get it restarted
• I am not sleeping as well as I need to be
• Physically, because of all the above factors, I am feeling very stiff and fragile

Work sucks

• Key people at my work have been eliminated
• We're on pretty shaky ground and I don't know how long things will last... could be getting a layoff anytime now
• I have some opportunities, but they may not come in time for me, should a drastic change occur for me

I am still seeing Kate

• We spend a lot of time together
• We do not have an exclusive relationship, but for the most part, we do kind of act like it
• Things have been good overall, but there have been some sources of stress and strain recently where she actively considered whether or not we had a future together

I am seeing Sally

• She had a change in her relationship where she and Ranger Rick agreed that they would have an "open marriage" and could actively date other people
• She understands that we don't have an exclusive relationship either, but she doesn't like the thought of me seeing other women
• Overall, things have been good with her. We normally are with each other on a weekly basis, but we are in touch at least once a day
• We are closer now than we practically have ever been and it has been a lot of fun
• There was an incident with Rick a short time ago that is now causing her to question her previous position about their staying together

There's probably more that I could say, but these seem to be the "big ticket" items and the source of the majority of the stress and uncertainty that I am currently feeling.

My gut tells me that in the next few months, I am going to have to make some hard choices about how I am going to live the rest of my life. I am not looking forward to it, but I know that it's necessary.

Something has to break here, I just need to make sure that it's not me!

More to follow...