Let The Light Shine Through...

It should be no surprise, after looking at everything I've written over the past few days, that this has been a long and stressful weekend for me. In fact, I've now got canker sores in my mouth and extremely strong cravings for junk food and desserts. While there may be much about who I am that I don't know, I do know that both of these are typical stress reactions for me.

As it turns out, there has been a few small rays of light this weekend.

The first one was the meeting that I set up with Sandy, my parents (Mom and Stepfather) and I. It went great. I was very, very pleased. It definitely caught them off guard and they were sad about the situation, but they were great about it. I guess that part of it had to do that we were in good shape about it. It wasn't a long conversation and there's an opening to have lots more discussion as we need to. Whew. What a relief

On top of that, Sally and I had quite a bit of time texting each other today. Even though she was on a short trip out-of-state, logistically it just kinda worked out for us. We had some really great exchanges. As she was  about to take off, she wrote me a short email... knowing that I couldn't reply, eh? LOL

I was so moved by her message, it just about brought me to tears. She talked about how my being in her life has touched hers. How it has helped her feel things that she's never experienced before. She also told me that there was a lot that she still wants to experience with me and that she loves me very much. She'd said "I love you" before, but never "I love you very much".

While that was significant, it wasn't really what moved me. The thing that did was recognizing the fact that she was going to great lengths to really be in this with me fully. That she chose me to be the person she trusted enough to let into and become a part of her life. She didn't have to do either of those things, nor share these thoughts with me.

Even if our relationship never goes anywhere from here, I am very proud and honored to be that person for her. I know that she has been an important part of my life and who I am becoming. Having some sense that I have been able to be that for her is more satisfying than just about anything I can imagine.

Tonight, I shall go to sleep a very happy man.

I wonder what tomorrow shall bring?