And There It Goes...

That is the sound of the "other, other shoe" dropping.

Heh. I knew that there was something building! When something starts getting under Sally's skin, she starts looking for reasons to justify why she should disconnect or take an action that she considers unfavorable.

We've been together for over two years now -- in both good times and bad times. I have a pretty good feel for how things go when they start to come unwound.

Here's how it went down...

It all started with a text message yesterday. She told me that she was really not doing well and was all conflicted about things. She felt that she needed to get some clarity before starting her work week. I told her that I was supportive of that. Duh. It's not like I want her to be dealing with all that all at once.

Anyhow, we caught up on IM later that day. We were chatting for a little while and she informed me that she had to go. She visited another social networking site that we both belong to and found that I published something on there that would allow people to contact me easier. All of a sudden she starts going "ape shit" (technical term, eh?) on me. Telling me that I should have told her in advance and that this action meant that we really weren't "together."

Needless to say, this entered into a bit of a minor shit storm, but I really knew what was going on in the background. She was trying to position in her mind an action that she's on the cusp of taking -- pruning me from her life.

Look, I don't downplay the amount of stress that she imposes on herself. Nor do I agree with some of her methods or how she's going about working it all out. In the end, it doesn't matter what I think. I know that she's going to do things the way that she does them. And, as I have predicted in the past here on the blog, I'm pretty sure that she's going to stay close to the status quo.

Well, so I get up this AM and I find that I've not received any "Good Morning" text from her. So, I reached out and she gave me the "politically correct" responses. Other than that, she was silent. I said to myself "oh, it's going to be one of those days..."

Wait for it... it's getting better.

I log on to my e-mail this AM and what do I find? A rather longish e-mail from her. She details all of  the stress that she feels and how I am at the center of it all. Even though I've not asked her for or to do anything that would overly complicate matters for her.

The bottom line on it is that she's:

• Actively considered ending our relationship;
• Still going to talk to Rick, as planned;
• Not in a real position to make a move away from him yet.

So, I know the exact trajectory of how this is going.
You can see this one coming a mile away, can't you?

This is how it works:
I am on the outside.
I get kicked to the curb -- AGAIN.

If that's the path she chooses, I can say that there's only one kicker to it:

This time, it'll be permanent!!

I can't realistically imagine any other outcome. Seriously.