Wednesday, January 2, 2019

And there it is...

Well, I cannot say that it's entirely unexpected.
On New Years Eve Sally and I ended up having another conversation about the previous evening.
Great timing, eh?! O.o
It was as painful as it was illuminating.

Here's how...

Here's the essence of it, as there's too much to go into detail about:

She's wondering why we're married. Why?
She asserts that we are no longer partners.

She even told me that, while I may not have hurt her physically like Ranger Rick did, I hurt her just the same.
You know what? The comparison is offensive and hurtful to me!
The only difference is that I didn't blow up about it or take it personally.

She doesn't want to depend upon me for anything ever again.
Tonight I talked with her about supporting her with something important.
What was unsaid in the background was "I'm going to do this on my own, like it or not"

Yesterday I updated our written D/s agreement accordingly and it had a lot of stuff and changes to it.
We reviewed it last night. Now, we can date anyone we wish without restriction. I did that intentionally.
At the end of the review? No questions or comments.

In other words, what we have now is a joint household with defined living arrangements.
The reality of it is this is prep for later this year when our lease comes due on the house we're renting.
She'll make whatever kind of exit suits her and I'll be taking on what's next.

In 2020, we'll be either divorced (or on the way to it).
I've got a lot of shit to clean up and prep to do to ensure I'm ready to do my part.

Bottom line: I've accepted where things are at. Like it or not, I'm ready.

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