No date tonight. Why? Keep reading...
Everything seemed to be going so well when I woke up this morning. Per my original plan, I send a text message off to Laura telling her that I am excited to see her and will contact her to firm up the time and location. Don't hear anything back from her, so I am proceeding on as though all is good to go.
About six hours pass and I get a text message back from her:
Her: Hey there! so r u considering this a date? :) just want to clarify.OK. That's a reasonable enough question. I thought that we'd covered enough ground previously that the answer was fairly obvious. So I offered up my response:
Me: Yes, I am. :-)OK. Seemed to me to be a reasonable response. Then I got this back:
Me: And i am looking forward to it.
Me: Of course, we still have to choose the location. I don't have any real preference. If you do, let me know.
Me: As soon as i finish my 2:30 meeting I will be leaving. Will likely be in the area early and entertain myself while we work out the specifics. LOL
Her: Well, just being honest im happy to meet for dinner but date ill have to clear with boyfriend & his kids. Not sure they will approve. lolWell, guess what? I was not fucking laughing. I didn't think there was anything funny or comical about it. In fact, I felt pretty crappy. I sent several messages back apologizing for assuming too much, overstepping my bounds and resetting expectations -- and giving her her evening back.
As I think about all of this, it just makes me kind of depressed. Even (especially?) when I was young, I never was much on dating. I was never one of those guys who was full of confidence and bravado. Quite the contrary. That's what I wanted to be like. I'm probably more like Walter Mitty than anything else. This doesn't do me any favors.
I think i am going to be learning many painful lessons in this whole dating experiment. In the end, I hope that I don't find myself continually failing and giving up. Right now, it feels like my life is being systematically disassembled and there is no one keeping track of any of the parts or how they should go back together to have it work well again.
I so hate my life, I can't stand it.
That's not very nice on her part not telling you upfront that she was dating someone.
ReplyDeleteDon't be depressed. You are rushing things:)
I've had a chance to think about things and I really just think it's more of not knowing what is what. I've never been good at dating, so this is how I am learning -- by making some mistakes. Fortunately, being embarrassed is not fatal! LOL
ReplyDeleteThe truth is that it's not all her fault. I do have responsibility on the matter. That's a good thing. I can make corrections and do better. I already have!