In a move that was both uncharacteristically forward and cowardly at the same time, I ended things with Sally this morning.
I feel about as low as a person probably can and am not at all proud of myself. Quite the contrary, actually.
I feel like a complete coward and a failure. I am not having an easy time of it and I don't know how this is going to turn out.
I have brought this pain upon us and I will live with that for the rest of my life.
I haven't touched alcohol in about 25 years, but right now getting completely shitfaced seems like a pretty compelling idea. I am not in a good place and just the thought of that scares me.
Take one day at a time or hour. You CAN get through this!! You are strong! Do not touch alcohol!! It really will not help and in the end it will make things much worse!! Trust me this is probably the best thing you could have done. You will find someone that loves you and wants to be just with you and only you!
ReplyDeleteGayle,
ReplyDeleteDon't worry. I won't touch the booze.
I am shaky, but I am OK.
Moving forward, I guess...