The End of Desert Chick?

As abruptly as it started, I may put an end to things with Desert Chick.

Right now, I'm feeling a bit overcome with everything that's been happening. I need stuff to slow down a bit. I've got lots moving on lots of different fronts and more romantic involvement is unlikely to make things any better for me.

One thing is clear to me, there is a piece of my being alone that is good right now. I do need some time to be on my own -- really on my own! I've never had that before. Having a "significant other" at this point, would distract me from that. I cannot afford to blow this next period of the transition. I have to take this ground for myself.

That doesn't mean that I can't or shouldn't have sex, date or do anything like that. The thing that bothers me about Desert Chick is that she's in a set of circumstances that she doesn't want to be in. I don't want to be the "escape hatch" and who she grabs on to. I don't need a dependent right now. I'll have a hard enough time managing myself, the ex and "our" pets.

I am going to have this conversation with her in the next day or so. It may not go very well. I don't know. We'll see. Don't get me wrong. I like her a lot and I enjoy her company. That's not at issue. What is at issue? All I know is that, right now, I've got to look out for my best interests. Hooking up with her doesn't seem like it will serve those interests.

There will be time for experiments later. Right now, not so much.