Thursday, December 20, 2018

Same stuff, different year...

You become the person you are today over time. It's not like we're just fucking hatched and come out fully formed.

No, it takes living life, experiences and early decisions played out to do that.

Regret is unusual for me. Yet, I am still addressing this.
Four and a half years ago, I wrote this.
Today, I am still dealing with the fallout from my decision.

I probably will for the rest of my life.

Not a day goes by when I don't think of Kate, how much I loved being with her, or consider that my leaving *her* was one of the biggest mistakes of my life to date.

Considering that I am now with Sally, that doubles what I experience/feel today.

It will likely come to a head before the end of the year.
Certainly before January.

Things are "off" and I don't know how much more I can take!

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